God wants you to desire His Love, because He wants to pour His Love directly into YOUR heart, right there where it hurts so much.
The Two Counsels
Maintain an Awareness
It is very important that you understand that it is not so much what happened to you during your childhood that affected you the most, BUT WHAT YOU CAME TO BELIEVE ABOUT YOUR SELF, OTHERS, AND GOD, IN RESPONSE TO THE CIRCUMSTANCES (facts) of your childhood life.
The Two Counsels